book

had a dream...
about the book...

so it's fully in my conscious
and subconscious mind...
that's good, right?

so... about that 5 year plan...

lately i've been thinking again...
about that part of the 5 year plan
that is still unaccomplished...

writing a book...

still want to do that...

need to do that...

it's budding again... that idea...

coffee talk

...just needed to rant...

went to starbucks this morning (yes, starbucks)
ordered my drink (my salvation - haha)
and went to wait for it...
the lady in front of me had on a very cute skirt -
one that i would love to find in my closet...
it was casual, yet refined enough that it wasn't sloppy...
it looked soft (no, i didn't touch it), but wasn't wrinkled...
so i decided to tell the woman i liked her skirt.
i am hoping she has hearing loss or maybe needs a cuetip or something...
because i am quite sure i spoke loudly and crisply this morning
(despite not having gotten my coffee yet)
she glanced at me...
looked me up and down...
smirked (not smiled, but smirked - there might have been a noise with it)
and half nodded in my general direction.

are you kidding me?

le sigh.

i was trying to be nice.
i don't look like a bag lady today - so i'm not sure what the look was for...
i have my cute jeans on and i know my socks and shoes match, respectively...

whatever.

i still like her skirt...

dear hummus -

i love you.

that is all.

my fingers remembered the stitches...

my great grandma is someone very special to me

she died - not recently

she was strong and italian and stubborn

and talented and loving and loved

and missed

the year i went to college she told me that if i ever needed her

all i had to do was to look to the moon, and speak to her and she'd hear me

that should sound crazy 

it didn't.

tonight i sat down to "practice" knitting

i have been trying to teach myself to knit for a few weeks now

i've made carter a few ugly neck sock things... (don't ask...)

tonight i sat down to "practice" knitting

and my fingers remembered something they've never done successfully

the stitches are beautiful -

good tension

correct counts

there is no moon tonight -

but great grandma was here

maybe that sounds crazy

but it isn't.

note to self...

do not ever eat a
fiber one bar +
broccoli +
grape nuts
within another 18 hour period...

...not going to lie -
this was a complete mistake.
do not do it again.

Goals for 2009

... a new year

... a chance for making life better than it was last year

(this will be a challenge considering how great last year was...)

so i've resolved that my focus will be on the details...

the things that i have to remember to think about.

anyhow - this isn't the start of a list of resolutions -

it's an ongoing list to be updated as frequently as needed...

list of things i am doing to make my life better...

and consequently, hopefully making better the life of others?

(one can only hope and dream, right?)

now my list:

1.)  i will not be buying commercially made household cleaners, if i can find a way to make them myself (in a way and using ingredients that are healthier for me, dear husband, furbaby carter, and the earth itself)

2.)  we will continue to use "real" plates/dishes/cups (i.e. no paper, plastic, disposable)

3.)  we will not buy bottled water

4.)  we will reduce our use of paper towels (this is my newest endeavor - we just started using "unpaper" towels.  there is a stack on the counter, and a mini "trashcan" just for them.  these will be washed and re-stacked as necessary...)

5.)  kitchen appliances that do not need to be plugged in continuously will be unplugged when not in use

this is not the end of the list - just the beginning...